self denial

"self denial is game i never thought i would've wanted until there was you.." ~ same ground

alone with my meandering thoughts
under the stillness of the crescent moon
i wait for a word, a breath, a touch
but the night remains silent and unmoved
much like your constrained indifference
but even as i sink in this sudden frailty
and fumble in this imposed agonizing solitude
i promise to keep my distance and wait
even if the dreadful night threatens to eat me whole
even if my world skids to a screeching halt
even if in this deafening silence, i lose myself

... and cease to be