. . . helpless. . .

i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
has anyone cared to notice?
do you see i'm trembling as i bleed
as i come spiraling down,
further down
this road leading to nowhere

i try to reach for something,
someone,
to hold on to
but there was nothing

there was no one
there was no you. . .

Playful Circumstance

Must you speak in codes and riddles
Must I fumble for meaning in your tangle of words
Must you sneak your way into my every thought
Must you bewilder and puzzle me senseless
dazed and lost in this web of confusion
Spun by you. . . Spun by me. . .
In this unlikely, unpredictable turn of playful circumstance

Must you haunt me even in the most pleasant of dreams
Must I lose myself in this blind fascination
Must you disarm me with just a word, a touch
that my walls suddenly come crashing down
leaving me trapped in this mess of a rubble
Spawned by you. . . Spawned by me. . .
In this unlikely, unpredictable turn of playful circumstance

Must you leave and disappear without warning
Must I shiver alone in this cold empty ruin
Must you cease my world with such brutal force
that I am left with nothing but casualties of your lost affection
dazed and caught in this web full of scars
Spun by you. . . Spun by me. . .
In this unlikely, unpredictable turn of playful circumstance

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And so I wait...
the seconds turning into minutes
the minutes into hours
the hours into days
how long has it been?
when time moves in slow motion
it's easy to lose count
is this what forever feels like?
if it is, then i dread
that this just might never end

But I will wait...
even as the seconds pass by like years
the minutes into centuries
the days into millenia
each dreadful moment
lasting an eternity
even as time fades into oblivion
leaving me here, waiting
for my world to turn and move
for the clock to strike a nerve
and free me from this catatonia